Been smiling and laughing everytime i'm out, till th time when i'm alone, i start to think. I start to think of you. I'll re-read those messages you sent, heartbreaking as always. I'll think of what you've done for me as a boyfriend, th heart cries for attention.

I always thought you've changed. But no, after HTHT w th bestfriend, i realised i'm th one who changed. I've been really easy-going to th extent i tolerated your behaviour for 17 months. But now, with all th pressure and stress coming from my commitments, i'm becoming more demanding of you, as my boyfriend, th supposed-to-be future spouse, th pillar of support, th motivation for me to excel. But are my demands ridiculous..? I thought they were th minimum.

No doubt that you love me & i still love you. But something else is missing in this relationship. Oh right, i can't feeeeeel th love. Th love from you, th love from me, & th love from US.

Why is it that receiving messages from others can bring a smile across my face, & receiving yours always bring a frown? Why is it that other guys are catching 11:11 for me & no longer you? There're too many "WHY"s, i dont really wanna compare you to others, but i cant help it.

I dont deny th fact, th fact that i do have a strong feeling of letting go. Many encouraged me to let go, & a couple of them stopped me from doing something silly. I dont wanna repeat th same mistake four years ago, & that's th reason why i'm holding on for so long.

I'm easily contented, but you haven't done something to make me feel contented. No nothing at all. This relationship is draining my emotions and energy. 真的很想放弃..

What's your take on this? Do you think we can conquer this? Ah fuck, dont even think you'll be reading this. #justmyownwishfulthinking

#TINGWENtalks
Accumulated unhappiness, impaired love. Should we restore it to its original position or just dispose it?

Till then.