this year had been tough. been through many emotions that made me come out strong. i'll continue to fight on, so i can be th most independent, strongest & toughest girl in th universe. stay strong girl! :> 

They say i'm good, but i think i'm just hardworking. I don't know.... It feels really good to be appreciated, I have to admit that I'm a little proud to share about this though. However, if people who have no eyesight problem, would have actually tell that I'm already slogging my life out in EY. What will happen to me if they execute th plan? I might lose my life in EY... :'{

Scared about th future, although uncertain. Hope everything will be fine.

On a happy note, MY FIVE REPORTING DEADLINES ARE ALMOST ENDING. LAST ONE TO FIGHT ON. YAY. But that means I still got 3 FS to rush before CNY. Oh dear, that's my mundane life. BUT i enjoy what I'm doing, even if it means sacrificing family & friends' social time tgt, etc. (':

PRESS ON, TINGWEN!

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2012 wasn't smooth-sailing for me.

Mainly caused by work, I neglected family & friends on many occasions, lost my beauty sleep, found many excuses for myself to skip ACCA lessons etc, which made me feel helpless, stressed, fed-up & even feel like giving everything up.

But also because of work, I realised th sweet fact that my family loves & dotes on me, always concerned about my whereabouts & my health. Thankyouu family for your love & care, and for your tolerance of me treating th home as a hostel/chalet 'cause i'm always out till late. Thankyouu friends, who can understand th nature of my work, who constantly encourage me to keep going, who forgives me for not meeting up due to work. && thankyouu to my EY colleagues who have “OT-ed” w me, drinkdrankdrunk to dissolve our stress & troubles away, & helped to groom me into who I am today.

I'm 1 day to turning 1 year old in EY, & I'm looking forward to creating a second year in there. HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE. ❤

First week of work, and I feel the stress already. 3 F/S to be signed by Mid January, 1 F/S by End January, 4 F/S by Start of February. For all these 8 companies, I'm the "Team Leader". FML.

Exams are over. F5 is barely commendable for th amount of empty stares i have for th paper... F7 seems to be okay, can't afford to retake this paper cos they change standards again!! F9 is beyond hope, only have 4 words to describe: “try again next year”. :|

Met th year3 clique after my exams. Went to Alps Cafe to eat & celebrate Xiuhui & my end of misery! && went Far East shopping w Xiuhui on Saturday! Well-spent saturday, bought a pair of shoes! && did our manicure(: tried gellish manicure for th first time, & am in love w my nails. (:

Met th cliqueey for dinz & then went ahead w «Ah Boys To Men» w Xiuhui thereafter. Th show was pretty satisfactory, th laughing factor is there! :D

Sunday was spent w th family! This 5.5 weeks of holidays have to eventually come to an end. Due to th nature of my work, I've neglected my family alot during th past year. Thankful for this 5.5 weeks, I have gained back much love from my nieces. So touched when I heard they missed me, I cried at work yesterday. :') missed them alot too, but i have to prioritise my work.

So monday, i started work. Did planning for 3 companies. Like a heroine, i felt. Met th 4e2 peeps to celebrate princess angiethq's bday. Dinner @ Kiseki was pretty good despite th fact I think i could die eating so much. D:

Current work status: very stressed.
Working on 3 related companies w 2 interns under me. Yes, they are very very good & important help to me. But I have more than that to do. Stressing over this & that everyday. First week & i feel th backlogs floating to me. But i will not collapse. Because what doesnt kills me makes me stronger. I love my work, & i'm proud of it. JIAYOU MISS YAP. Have a little faith. (:

或许我爱的方式错了，追求爱的方式错了. 自己都不知道要的是什么.

This November is th most fruitful month in 2012 for me. I went Genting w th family in th first weekend, lost my IC there. Went to remake my IC at a cost of $100!! Super heartpain, but thankful that th “kind soul” returned my IC to ICA! (': 破财挡灾.

I went shopping w my ersao for 3 consecutive saturdays, and spent a bombbbb! I also went qoo10 to do alot of online shopping. Hohoho. :P

&& I met Peixuan BFF to celebrate her twentyfirst! Sushi buffet @ Nihon Murai. Bought her Chanel's limited edition eye-shadow. My first Chanel purchase yo! But glad BFF loves it. (:

I went back TP, I met up w year3 clique, I went singing karaoke w th favourite interns, I spent quality time alone at home watching shows, catching all those overdue sleep from th past 10 months. I did soooo many things I think I could have missed listing them out.

I enjoyed my life soooo much I dont want to return to reality. ): Maybe i should just marry to a millionnaire and be a taitai for life?

&& ohh, Victor has left th firm. My new counsellor's now Xilin. Though I know I'm gonna miss my fierce & stern boss alot, I still wish him th best in life. (: Prepared a present and handmade card for him but things cropped up, & i wasnt able to pass to him... It's still at my house & i'll pass to him some other day. :{

Exam's in 3 days time. If you have to ask me how's my revision coming along, i have to honestly say “i played too much this holiday. I really didnt study.” But who's gonna believe my words? Everyone's like “C'mon, you're Tingwen ley! How can it be?!” or even Denise BFF said “you so smart, no problem one lah!!” But who's there to really witness all these? I know myself too well. I didnt put in enough effort for this exam. I'm prepared to fail F9 for 100% sure. && I'm on th fence of salvaging my F5 and F7. Can't afford to fail all 3, I'll go bonkers.

So many people think highly of me. I can't fail at all. There's no room for failure. && everytime i think of this, i really hate myself so much. Have I been working hard to impress others all these while? When did I actually work hard for MYSELF?

Nevertheless, I have to put in my 200% effort to make sure i pass at least 2 papers. Goodbye to my ACCA incentive from EY. But what to do? I only have myself to blame..

JIAYOU BA, TINGWEN. HAVE A LITTLE FAITH!

Toodles,

今晚，特别想你了.

A close friend's granny just passed away. Feeling more affected than he is, not like i've met his granny before lah... Just feel affected whenever i heard of such departure news.

I cried together w th rain tonight. I've finally picked up my study emotions after slacking for so long, & everything just came crashing tonight.

You havent been coming into my dreams lately, how have you been? Miss you so much, whenever we mention about you, there wld be awkward silence because we're all thinking in deep thoughts about you. I turned 21, and that made you turn 57. We could have celebrated our birthdays together!

真的很想念.
I•MISS•YOU•DEARLY

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